Just Thinking...

[thefifthmonarch]

... I feel bad for her, that nobody's asked her.

I really dislike winter. The snow's depressing and people worry too much.

Was I really that awful of a person? Mmm...

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[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Mmm?

Everyone else I've talked to has said otherwise...

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Who are you speaking about?

It's my opinion.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

A woman who helped me a while back.

... mmm. Still... I don't think the old Wakahisa Noriko is really worth existing.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Aah... Alright, then.

That's your opinion. If you think... That your old self isn't worth existing, then she isn't. Because it's you.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I feel terrible for her.

... Hmm? What do you mean?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

...If you feel terrible for her, then you should do all you can to make sure that things become a way... That you eventually won't.

Wakahisa Noriko is Wakahisa Noriko. The only one who has a true standing on whether one should exist... Is themselves.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

I am. I'm going to be visiting her soon...

... I... see... The old me was cold. Cruel. Rude. Gluttonous. Mean. Bratty. ... Rich.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

That's good, at least.

...Mn... Though, wealth itself isn't exactly a "bad" thing. It's more... How they use such wealth, than anything else. It's one thing to be from a wealthy family; it's another to generally, well... Flaunt it.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Yes.

... And I was both. Rich and a Flaunter. ... Mmm.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Mn... Still, it's your choice on whether the "old" you should exist... It's your identity. Your personality. Your mind.

No one else has the choice in that matter.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

But... I'm not quite real either, am I? Will people even acknowledge who I am now as real...?

Mmm...

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

If you think of yourself as real, then you are certainly "real" to others.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Unless they try to argue otherwise. Mmm.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Their opinion, of course.

The one that matters most, in concerns to yourself... Is just "you".

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

And... I'm somewhat unsure as to exactly, who I am, Mr. Samasu.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Mn... Well, who do you want to be, Noriko?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Right now...?

I want to be... poor.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Then be so, if that's what you really want.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Mmm...