thefifthmonarch | (no subject)

Hmm... so this isn't an actual seperate personality, but rather, a sort of forced perspective change.

...So, basically, it's a case of mind fighting with the blinders, in a sense...

Hmm... I don't have enough data to say much on this, but it appears the wish is at least somewhat intact... it's just that you can break through somehow... so why are you like this NOW? What made you feel you had to come out?

(Yes, I do realize that it was at least partially my comment... but why would that break your perspective?)

...I'd LIKE to help, if possible. Considering that this is at least partially my fault.

Hahahahah.... It's amazing what could trigger that, isn't it?

The human mind... The psyche... It's marvelous to observe. To try to figure out... Just what makes it work.

But... At the very least, I'm sure that this will work out fine.

Thanks. But I should stop being so weak, right now.

Weak?

Be crying like this. It's not dignified.

My hair... I can't dye it... I'm really a brunette. I just like being a blonde. And since I put so much effort into it... it became Yuuko's price as well as a trigger.

I hope so... Sorry.

Mn...

Not hope. It will, Noriko. Because of that... There is nothing to apologize for.

Exactly. The only thing that really changed was my tolerance to what I owned.

Yes.

I... feel too stung and reminded of myself by my own comment and your comment. If you need an explaination. Basically, I got too reminded of who I really am, and it broke what train of thought which lead to me speaking like this again, dahling.

Keh. Why should I even talk to you if you can't respect what I was to begin with. I love who I am. Was. Whatever.

...Mng...

...You've already started, so... You might as well continue to do so, until you can't anymore.

It might not be dignified, but it's a natural thing, to cry.

Go back in time and fix it.

It's not proper.

When is there a line between "proper" and "natural"? All of the dignity in the world, and proper actions, can not stop what comes naturally to human beings.

I feel guilty. You don't know how hard it is to be me as I really am. I can't stand being emotional around them. It's just not dignified.

I'm not supposed to cry, damnit...

Well in that case, probably just need to take a night's sleep, and once you aren't focused on this the wish will take hold again.

Because I wouldn't respect myself if I acted like that anymore, and considering I easily put several tens of millions of dollars worth (at current conversion rates) of money in the bank, I don't see it as a reason to consider oneself superior, let alone obnoxiously act as such.

Sounds like I don't really need to... you just need to relax somewhat, and the wish will take hold again.

Mn... I probably know a bit better than you think... But that's not the point.

Emotions tend to override dignity. Not something you can really stop, when they get going... You're at least in your own room, right?

...What's so wrong with crying, anyway?

Most likely, Eusebius. Besides, the reason I snapped is I felt the need to be sarcastic, and the only way to do that is how I do it. My sarcasm was all regulated to my "Bratty" side.

Because I was born into wealth. I was taught and reinforced this made me better than lesser wealthy people.

Keh. Not like you care though.

Duh. Not Souha.

Yes... until the buildings are finished, and then I bunk with others.

I miss being myself... yet... I never want to go back.

Actually it's worked for more than just Souha... I just misunderstood the situation, that's all.

It's not what a girl of my status should be doing, Samasu.

Then take advantage of being in privacy, tonight.

...Conflicting, isn't it? You should... Eventually think that over, but not right now.