[Private to Erland Eusebius]

[thefifthmonarch]

So, hey, Erland. I'm thinking of doing something. I want to... create something for the safety of the students. I dunno. I just worry in the long term, without something to rally them behind something, this school might have trouble...

Mmm...

Also, I think we need to talk about my body. My real one.

Comments

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...oh?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Yeah...

I... would take it back. But I don't think I can ever deserve to become her again.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...seems silly to me, really... But why bring it up, then?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Just... I... have a yearning. I some things I need to do, and maybe giving something to it... would be nice...

But...

Mmm...

On another note, do you think it's feasible to create conditions for someone to replace Yuuki Juudai?

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

You know that I'd enable you to return to human form if you'd let me. You've already spent a long time in penance. Returning to a human would be... humbling.

Mmm... Depends on the kind of replacement you're looking for. But so long as you aren't expecting the same level of power or dedication... then yes, it's feasible.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... I can't. I don't deserve it. But... it shouldn't just... be there, in a jar.

Someone who inspires people like Yuuki did.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...If you say so.

...Hmm... someone for people to get behind, and inspire them? ...it's not impossible. You'd need someone with natural charisma... then build leadership in them.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... Grrr... Why am I getting upset about a stupid Mat body anyways.

I have a list.

- Akihara, Neneko
- Hikari, Hoshi
- Jeanette Dianne Grave
- Samasu, Setsuo
- Samasu, Sanshi
- Danielle Lapiz-Lazli
- Faitayuu, Onnifuji
- Eero Nanashi
- Haruto
- Samasu, Saikou
- Samasu, Suguru
- Benihime
- Mon Millennia
- Tsubasa
- Susan DeRay
- Chishu Akinobu
- Tori Crawford
- Jeb Parmalee
- Natsuki
- Suta Hanu
- Kuo
- Mao
- Victoria Grave
- Corvus

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Because it's not the body, it's the life it represents?

...Recognize more than half of those names. None of them seem particularly charismatic. ...except maybe Jean, but that's a different type of 'charisma'.

...Wait, Susan. She might have potential.

Benihime... I don't think so. She's hot blooded, but I'm basically having to reenact "My Fair Lady" just to get her to be AVERAGE.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Susan DeRay then? Should she be my focus?

And that's the best I can do. To breed a third year would be without point. The second-first year has time to do things.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

She'd probably be mine, personally... but I don't recognize all those names, so...

Yeah, a first year would be preferable, if possible.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Mmmm...

Second isn't ideal, but they have the inspiration and time to do good.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

I guess it's a good back-up.

Scatter seeds and see what grows, I suppose?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Yeah...

Pretty much.

But... I think I'll ultimately become a monster, regardless.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...wouldn't that be a reason to go back to being human?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... Why should I deserve that? I have become a shadow to those who left this world. I... will emulate them. And die.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...heh. Did you give this pessimism to Shikou, or did he give it to you?

Maybe in a full circle, even.