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I think I'm getting into a rut. I find myself usually reading a romance novel while watching bland television while I grade homework and prepare for my class lessons.

But it isn't too bad. The job pays well and the students are nice.... but you can't help but feel... I'm not sure how to say it, but blank? Burnt out? I'm not sure.

Hrm, maybe getting a hobby would help. But, don't have any ideas on that front.

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Haitayuu Onnifuji, please report to my office within the next week for psychological evaluation.

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Samasu Sanshi, please report to my office within the next week to receive childhood memories.

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Th' next week, huh? Fine. Guess it's better t' get that over with anyway.

Probably best. And also so we can tweak any problems.

Che, problems? A'right.

Things seem t' be goin' fine so far at least.

Well do tell me if anything gets weird.

Yeah yeah, will do.

People keep goin' an' sayin' that they're worried though or that they feel sorry f' me an' stuff like that-- it keeps feelin' annoyin' though. That normal, at least?

Somewhat. They mean well, though.

I get that, but I think it'd mean well a hell 'f a lot more when they realize that just just aggravatin' after a while, y'know?

They usually don't.

Even when one says it straight t' their faces?

For most life, shutting off emotions isn't easy.

Shuttin' off emotions, nothin'.

It's called... What's th' expression... "Bitin' your tongue."

Whoever they were, they probably meant well.

I get that. But sometimes it's better t' say it once an' then not repeat it.

... Yeah, I can see how that's annoying.

Everything been going well elsewise, dear?

've been tryin' t' find someone's motorcycle. They 'pparently lost it when they got suddenly kidnapped a few months ago.

Ah. Kurochi. That's nice of you. I'd say you're doing very well despite all your issues.

... 'er bike was gonna be my bike in th' first place, so let's just say that 've got an invested interest in makin' sure it's in one piece. It ain't cause 'm bein' "nice" at all.

've been feelin' more awake, not fallin' asleep all over th' place, an' actually not wakin' up due to repetitive nightmares at a constant rate.

... If you want to deny that, it still seems somewhat humanitarian.

Hrm. Have you had any new dreams since recovery?

None that I can remember at th' moment. 'm sure I still had some, just ain't, y'know. Th' normal absolutely traumatic stuff.

Would you like to talk about those at all?

Dunno. A lot 'f those sorts 'f dreams were just replays 'f crap 've seen, y'know? Like if I saw someone committin' a robbery, I might end up dreamin' that 'm committin' th' crime m'self.

You could see about taking another vacation. Or take up knitting.

I'd just feel antsy on another vacation.

... Knitting might help, though.

Then try knitting.

... Now to read a book on Knitting.

Within the next week? Alright, sounds good. I'll probably be able to drop by within the next couple of days.

That would be nice.

I hear you suffered a time line alteration? How do you feel with that?

It'll be so, then.

...At first when I did notice, it seemed like for the better, though now I'm definitely noticing that there's a lot of work I'm going to have to if I want to convince people I mean well, at this point. It's.. odd. Because I know in a way I shouldn't be here, but at the same time, from what I heard of myself, I wasn't doing so well regardless.

It's... all kind of confusing, though I'm starting to get agitated at the sheer amount of people who treat me with hostility. It's expected, given what I heard I did... but still.

Could you list those people, if you want to talk about it? I'll still want a more through session though.

Suguru-san has shown hostility when I talked to them, and Futaba-san generally likes to call me 'Foreign Haitayuu' due to my differences from me, but I at least take that in stride. I imagine Shikou-san probably holds contempt for me considering my actions, and Tokei-san I know still detest me for the attack itself.

I'm sure there are others, but I either haven't managed to talk to them yet or don't know about it.

Unsure as to Suguru, but she avoids me like the devil.

Shiroko... I think she's just suffering anxiety and she hates people being changed like this.

Shikou, no clue.

Kouji, yeah. I think she's going to be a total bitch to you.

Mn.

Probably. I can see that being the case. Hope talking with her more manages to lessen that anxiety.

Yeah. I'll probably have to talk with him on my own.

Yeah, I figured. Not sure what I can do on that front, so I'm probably just gonna end up doing nothing and shrugging off anything bitchy she says to me.

It might, it could also set her off emotionally and go into a murderous rage again.

Probably. Fortunately you can expect civility, even if threats are dropped.

Could work, or might piss her off further.

... So who's been nice to you?

If that's the case, I'll just have to try and find a way to shake her out of it.

...Yes. Though I imagine he'd have much less patience for me than for anyone else.

It's a gamble.

...Uh. Shiyoko. Jinn. Alexandra-chan. Geo.

...That's all I can really think of at the moment.

... Good luck.

But he'll still be the most civil and polite person about it. Which you have to respect.

Really want to go through with it.

So. Two guys and two sorta-guys. But the female persuasion proper seems offended by you breathing air. And I don't count. I'm a hyper evolved squid.

Thanks.

True, I can respect that.

Yeah.

...I guess you could put it that way, yeah, that could be the case.

That's what I like about him. He's a gentleman, even to his enemies generally.

So have fun with the sausagefest.

Fair enough.

Eh, opinion will swing around eventually. I just have to keep trying..!

Good luck. Be seeing you, dear.

See ya!

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