thefifthmonarch | (no subject)

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Goddamnit, I didn't need that. Not now. It's been barely a month if even that.

...I'm sorry... I really am...

I didn't think a light hearted comment like that would have this sort of effect...

... I WAS HAPPY, GODDAMNIT. I LIKED WHO I WAS.

... Dahling, you really should be more tactful.

...Honestly I like who you are. It might have felt false... but you were more honest, weren't you? You didn't cover up with make-up and jewelery, or false ideas of superiority. You were just... you.

Even if you were made by magic... you had a truer heart. Wouldn't that make you more... real?

The make up, the superiority, the jewels. THEY ARE ME, GODDAMNIT.

This is just me without money. It MAKES ME FAKE COMPARED TO WHAT REALITY IS. I could live my entire life without ever getting employed!

As could I... but I have no use for such things. Because they're silly. They're surface. You can paint up and build a wonderful front for a crumbling shack... but that doesn't change the fact that it's still a shack.

... ::Breaks down further, gg.:: I... don't... need... this...

...it'd help if you could tell me what WOULD help.

GO BACK IN TIME AND FIX THIS.

....not strong enough, sorry.

Then what DO YOU WANT?

...I'd LIKE to help, if possible. Considering that this is at least partially my fault.

Go back in time and fix it.

Sounds like I don't really need to... you just need to relax somewhat, and the wish will take hold again.

Duh. Not Souha.

Actually it's worked for more than just Souha... I just misunderstood the situation, that's all.

I meant reiterating information you already said. :|

...okay, I'm getting tired at this point... what?

Other thread. You already said I needed to rest. The need to repeat it is silly.

...ah, right... I think I really am getting tired.

And confusing me for Samasu Souha.

...not exactly, but it's hard not to think of this as two seperate personalities, or at least fluctuations in perspective.

Perspective, yes. But I remember what people say to me, regardless if I'm a Brat or this "True me" as you call this personality.

Regardless, it seemed the most appropriate response... and you did repeat yourself as well.

Hush. I get the option of doing that, you don't, Non-Mat.

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