thefifthmonarch | (no subject)

...ah ha... Basically, I stepped on the loose panel, and caused a collapse.

I was 'born' into treating humans like toys. I changed. Hence why I don't see your problem.

I do... if only a bit. I screwed up. At the very least, I want to know how.

If you want to put it like that, Eusebius.

Because I'm an a heir. Eventually, I have to manage that money. If I remember correctly, and I can't entirely, I'm an only child.

You made an ill comment. And you're insulting my real identity. Something I used to and still try to have pride in.

Fair enough, but I still don't see why that dictates your very personality.

Because to me, it's such a silly thing. While you might not like it, I really do think your forced perspective shift was for the better. While you might take pride... I see it as arrogance. It insults the part of me that still takes pride in who I really am, because it tries to devalue the choices I've made. However, I'm happier as I am now. Which way were you happier?

Because I was brought up to manage that eventually.

I DON'T KNOW. THAT WAS PART OF THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS.

I see it as a very ineffective way of managing it, myself.

You said you were happy a while ago, and that's at least one reason you're angry at me for temporarily breaking it now.

Keh. You don't have the same experience as me.

... Yes and no. I am happy, yet I can't say this is what I really want to be, Eusebius.

Not at the moment, no... but I've basically played chess with people's lives. I'd think the principles are similar, at least.

Honestly, you seem to think it's a matter of rich or not rich... but it really isn't. It's about how you carry yourself, and not acting like a brat. Without your ego flaunting... I really wouldn't mind you either way. Maybe you shouldn't focus so much on "A or B", and more on which aspects of yourself you'd be happier if you changed. It's not to say that it all has to be one way or the other.

Hmm.

Tell that to my parents. They consider my bratty behavior. How I really am, good. Kind of. My parents would be shocked if I ever acted like I am now to them, Eusebius. For me, there is only A and B.

Act differently around them. About everyone acts differently around their parents.

Heck, even now you're more tolerable. For one thing, you're being more honest... and for another, you don't have that fake accent.

Can't. Home and Work don't seperate for us, Eusebius.

We like that accent. It's fun to do, dahling. You should hear me laugh.

Then you're basically making your own problems by not being flexible.

I could probably stand the laugh. The "dahling" is annoying, though.

We just know it'll lead to trouble.

What's wrong with it? It's a word we like.

So it leads to trouble. Such is life.

Hmm... it's hard to pin-point things specifically... but I think one part is that it suggest a false level of familiarity. Don't like it. It'd be kind of like... me calling you 'hun'. That... and it doesn't fit the rest of you, really.

And we're going to avoid it.

How perverse, Mr. Eusebius. Doesn't fit?

No, you're just choosing a different kind of trouble. Sacrificing closeness with non-family for closeness with family.

Then you caught my drift, to an extent, yes?

Mmm... at least not right now. It feels false. Like acting. And being how I am, I feel compelled to tear that down. Obsessive compulsive, you might say.

Because I'll have to live with them for years once I leave.

Of course I did. I might be rich, but It doesn't mean my brain is bad.

I like acting.

And a keen, business savvy attitude that focuses on elegant refinement rather than obnoxious flaunting is bad...

Decadence can rot things away... but confirmation was mostly for my sake at the moment. Don't want to misunderstand the situation again.

Then why not 'act' with parents and just let things be here?

Yes. Because I'm so rich, I don't even need to touch the companies involved. "Good game", I belive some say.

Smart girl. Just selfish, self absorbed, snooty, arrogant, rude, mean, obnoxious. ... Why does that sound familar, Eusebius?

... Afraid it won't just be left 'Here'.

Still, elegant refinement inspires far more loyalty. I believe the Taoists called it "Wu Wei".

...hard telling, although I probably have some of those qualities.

Three years is a lot of time. You could always take several months to 'readjust', if needed.

Never heard of it.

I think they're common here, really.

Readjust? What are you getting at... damnit, I can't call you a commoner.

"Action without action." The notion that a ruler could be wise enough, and carry himself in such a way that the country would run itself down to the most insignificant person, inspired by his example.

...probably. I am working on those faults, though... even if I regress.

...hmm? Problem?

Heh. Possibly. But I doubt it.

We all regress.

YOU HAVE MILLIONS. THIS ANGERS ME.

Though. Readjusting. Explain.

Still a very noble and high-class aspiration.

What matters is how we proceed from there.

Because it means someone like me is technically in your social class?

Taking several months to get used to acting like you do, after spending a couple years acting more true to yourself. Then you'd be able to return home without having changed much, from what they see.

It is, but not for me.

Exactly.

Yes. ::If she said it in real life, the venom would be splooging::

Like that will work, Eusebius.

Which is why I question your taste.

...heh... Technically I'm in a higher class... I just don't care to flaunt it... ~~...as much...~~

It could.

...well, it seems you've calmed down considerably. After a nights rest you'll go back to how you were... if you'd rather I didn't join you and Shikou for Polo just let me know tomorrow.