Filtered from 'Akihara, Ryuuji'

[thefifthmonarch]

Mmm. Feel depressed, despite arguing with that guy.

Can people stop something as great truth, if hope is strong enough?

Mmm. Feel a little lonely.

... and he had to attack me about that...

Probably gonna be miserable.

Comments

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Hard to feel lonely, when someone speaks to you, Noriko.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Heh. True. Just... Feel back at square one.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Ah? Square one? Because of the person you spoke to, correct?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

Just... hit a nerve...

Mmm...

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

...Mn...

You might be on square one right now, but I'm sure you'll be able to move on from that, once more.

You moved on from it before. What's to say you can't do so again?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Just... why move forward if I'll never find an answer to anything?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Are you sure that you'll never find an answer, Noriko?

What if the answer you seek was past the point where you were? What if you had passed it before, and this is now your chance to retrace your steps, to get the opportunity again?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... What do you mean?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

There is always a answer to a problem, Noriko. No matter how small, or how big, or how absolutely frustrating.

It might just not be obvious, the first time you try to find it. You might miss it, when you look one time, and then you'll spot it the next.

Being back on square one, in and of itself... Might ultimately lead to you finding the "answer" you want. That you wish for.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... And what if I can't accept an answer at all?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Then that is your ability of acceptance, that would get in the way. Not the inability to find an answer or to look for one; just the ability to accept.

...Tell me, out of curiosity... How would you like it, if there was a world, in which you could be who you wanted to be, and you'd still have the same living conditions that you do? Your parents would accept you as you are. Your friends will be close to you, and care for you, as much as you care about them. You wouldn't have to worry about disappointing anyone. You wouldn't have to worry about losing what you have.

How would you like that, just out of curiosity?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... I'd want that very much, but such a thing is impossible, Shikou.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Hahahahahah... Nothing is ever impossible, Noriko.

At this point... It might be "improbable"... But one day soon, that will be a possible reality.

The ability to make it the true reality would come, as well, depending on the circumstances... And depending on your choices.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... Something seems different about you.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Nothing is different, Noriko. I've just accepted a few things.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

You're just usually not this proactive.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

"Usually", being the key word there, wouldn't you agree?

I've just found more of a reason to be so, now, Noriko.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Ah? What's the reason?

... But still, it's a delusional fantasy to think I could be... 'normal' and worth talking to.

I should just ask for the witch to take back my wish.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

The reason being one that you'll discover, in due time, Noriko. You're quite involved in this, actually.

If you want to, Noriko. But it's far from a "delusional fantasy".

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

It is when I know how the real world works.

I can't and shouldn't be this nice...

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

There's a reason why it's not a delusional fantasy.

Because it might just be the "real" world, one day.

It just all depends on how much you want it. How much you yearn for it. How much you'd wish to do for it.

What would you do, to make a "delusional fantasy" the absolute reality?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Bullshit! Things don't change that easily.

... I don't know... because I know the dream is a dream. Therefore I can't tell you what I'd do for it's sake.

[Private to Noriko]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Who said it'd be "easy", HiME?

Re: [Private to Noriko]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... What does that have to do with this, Shikou?

You have been brainwashed like those others, have you?

Re: [Private to Noriko]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

It has everything to do with this, HiME.

No, not brainwashed. I've just accepted my destiny. Just as a price, to fix a problem.

And it's because of this destiny, that I'm able to fix another problem... One much more severe, than the one I paid to fix, already.