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[thefifthmonarch]

... I believe... you wanted to learn how to...

Erm... play. Polo?

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[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... Right.

... I feel ostracized even as I am. I guess, people still see me as something fake...

Alright... Mister...?

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

It's true. :<

...huh. Maybe... maybe they just feel put out by how you used to be? Has anyone told you that they think that about you?

Erland Eusebius. Pink shirt, general nut, occasional amateur psychiatrist, etc, etc. Just to be nice and formal, you are...?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Strange island....

No... but I feel unwanted. Not exactly here. Or accepted.

Wakahisa Noriko. Obelisk Blue demoted to Osiris Red. Daughter of relatively wealthy parents. Current personality is due to magic, to be completely honest. Don't get used to it... I'll probably be loathing myself in a few months. I like Polo and cards that blind people's eyes.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

And why is that?

Heh.. yes, I've heard. Really the most annoying trait of your previous personality was utter lack of humility. It's something I've seen in others... and being who and what I am, I can't help but get annoyed at it.

But regardless, nice to meet you Noriko.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

And why is what...?

Well. I'm rich. I expect to be babied and people to bow at my feet. Or I did. When you've been born into wealth, respect and right of birth is all you expect.

Nice to meet you, Mr. Eusebius.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Why do you feel unwanted? What makes you feel that way?

And I came from a line that treated people like toys, and for better reason. Now I'm living with humans, and trying to make them happy. Why should money be a problem?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Mostly as you said... I guess people want others to be humble here. But even when I became... average...

I felt lost. Like... nobody wanted me. Regardless of wealth of poverty.

In human culture... the rich are expected to be... worshipped, I suppose is the word I'm looking for.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Mmm... well, to an extent you just have to realize that things take time. I, myself, have had a number of minor crisises with those close to me... one in particular... so I haven't had much time to talk to other people.

Hmm... I see. I've actually met several other people like that. Part of belonging can just be finding interests you share with others, and becoming more active. So long as you aren't trying anything negative against my 'family' and friends, and don't act too proud around me and my family... there's not much I could have against you. Can't say much for other people, though.

*shrugs* Makes no sense to me. I put a couple billion yen in the bank when I first got here so I could be comfortable... but besides being comfortable, what good is money?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

I guess I've never learned to be patient.

I guess we won't be friends after March, then. A pity. As... I'm a very proud girl. I take pride in who I am and that I was born the way I was... until recently.

... Wha wha wha what?!

Money tends to mean authority which means power which means you need to be respected or someone loses their head.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

It really does wonders. I suggest taking a class in it, if there is one.

Maybe, maybe not. Perhaps the other you just needs to be slapped upside the head a couple times. I've managed to get a stoic, serious girl to relax more, and a girl who was literally programmed to be disgusted with the idea of intimacy to stay with me... and still does so. Sometimes... you just need help to change is all.

...what what?

I guess I just find a good old fashioned smiting to do the job so much better. *shrugs*

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Mmm. Not sure if there is.

15 years I'm been like this. I'm not even sure if I turned back, I'd be willing to talk to you, Mr. Eusebius.

You have that much?!

Fear and respect is the norm for me.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Probably not.

Now that, I can't help. But at that point, I'd call it, as some might put it, "'yer own damn fault".

School and housing is expensive. I planned to live at least 10 years off of it, plus just being comfortable. Seemed reasonable, given how inflation can be, and how miserable bank interest is.

I don't really see how money deserves respect. ;P

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Sorry... I'm a very arrogant girl underneath. And... I don't want her to come back, in all honesty. But I'm not even real...

Hahaha. So true.

Because those with Money in the past were royal. Royalty by privlege, is to be respected, or you find yourself in Jail.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Oh? Because you're the result of a wish? But you have to remember... who made the wish?

Isn't it, though?

Still seems pointless to me. Even the French rose up when things got too much. Money can help, but once people have enough, there's not a lot you can do against swarm tactics.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Yes, and I did... but... The real me will probably... think she was cheated.

Mhm.

... Mmm...

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Well... apologies... but the truth is... I am a peacock underneath. Arrogant. Vain. Selfish... I am a vain girl... And... I don't to go to back to that, in all honesty. But I can't be like this either...

... True.

Wealth in the past tended to be tied to royalty. And royalty was expected to be respected. Or you might be decapitated for treason.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Oh?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Yes. I'm expected to be Wealthy. To be prissy. Prim. Proper.

Not scarred. Beaten. Worn. Dirty. Common.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

"Yes, and I did... but... The real me will probably... think she was cheated." <- How so?

Apparently that didn't include good manners.

"For want of a nail, the shoe was lost. For want of a shoe, the horse was lost..."

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

I don't know... just... that her wish wasn't everything she thought it was.

What's that proverb from?

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

How do you know that?

It varies, but one particular source was Benjamin Franklin's "Poor Richard's Almanac". But I believe you caught my meaning?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Because I'm her. Wearing Rose Colored Glasses.

For all you want, you lose something greater for the need to want.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

But that's not to say she won't have LEARNED something from this, is it?

*waggles finger* That the "small, dirty, common" things are what allow the big things to happen.

The rhyme ends with:
"For want of a battle, the Kingdom was lost.
All for the want of a nail."

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... Not if she feels the... I believe the meme is "The Cake is a Lie". Which as far as I can think... she believes so.

Ahh... I see. That makes sense.

Any problems with horses, by the by?

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...Well, we'll just have to see, won't we? Until then, it doesn't do any good to worry about it. Just live your life as you would now. If you just worry about her... then she won't have much to reflect on, will she?

It's a lesson the other you could probably stand learning.

...not that I'm aware of. ...haven't ridden any, especially not as I am now... should be interesting.