thefifthmonarch | (no subject)

...Mng...

Amazing what can happen between ending a conversation with you... And now.

Quite, dahling.

Mng... Is our plans for Saturday canceled now, given this development?

I was looking forward to it, to learning how to play the game with you... But... Sorry that this new "problem" has apparently appeared.

Eh, we can still teach polo even as is, dahling. It's a matter of rose colored glasses that we're wearing.

Mn... Of course.

I would still like it, if it were to occur, regardless.

Just because I'm a bitch, doesn't mean we can't enjoy a good game.

Never really thought of you like that, even before you made that wish to Miss Yuuko.

It would be nice to enjoy it with you, though.

You're one of the few, Samasu. Thanks, we appreciate it.

You're welcome, Noriko.

Thanks. But I should stop being so weak, right now.

Weak?

Be crying like this. It's not dignified.

...Mng...

...You've already started, so... You might as well continue to do so, until you can't anymore.

It might not be dignified, but it's a natural thing, to cry.

... Sorry. I hope this doesn't ruin Saturday...

I would like it if it didn't, Noriko, but... If you need time to sort this out, I'd understand.

mmm... Not... sort out... I... not Souha. I'm just... mmm. The paint is peeling.

While I would appreciate it if my brother was kept out of this... You'd still need time to sort out what's in your head.

This... really... is just peeling paint. That's why I never said that word as this girl.

Mn... It reminded you of your true self, huh?

It really... Honestly reminds me of a lot of things.

Too much to be comfortable...

Mn... It reminds me of a psychologist I knew... They helped people get through off... Traits. Quirks. Urges. By separating them from what would trigger that.

For instance, to separate an aggressive child from their aggressive nature... They made sure that they were unable to be aggressive. Even in a game, they had to take defensive routes, lest they accidentally triggered their own aggressive nature, through their actions in the game.

In a way... Separating yourself from a word separated yourself from your "true" self, is much like that. The aggressive child becomes calmed... While you become what you are, at this moment.

My hair as well. My hair was my price to be like this. Since. Cat's out of the bag, fair you should know.

Hahahahah.... It's amazing what could trigger that, isn't it?

The human mind... The psyche... It's marvelous to observe. To try to figure out... Just what makes it work.

But... At the very least, I'm sure that this will work out fine.

My hair... I can't dye it... I'm really a brunette. I just like being a blonde. And since I put so much effort into it... it became Yuuko's price as well as a trigger.

I hope so... Sorry.

Mn...

Not hope. It will, Noriko. Because of that... There is nothing to apologize for.