thefifthmonarch | (no subject)

I wouldn't exactly call you such in those words, but if you find them appropriate, then... Yes, we do know that.

Ah, I see.

I feel fake. Somewhat. I don't want to abandon myself... but. Ugh.

And it's just... yargh.

Mn... Maybe you should try to slowly change yourself in a way, so you won't feel like you're faking, anymore? At least, with the slowest of changes, as well as the most subtle, it doesn't feel like you're, as you put it, abandoning yourself. Especially if you only feel it somewhat... Slower would probably be better, in that case.

Is it at least rewarding, for you, to take part in it?

But I'm expected to be a snobby rich daddy's girl. ~~Then again, I'm not using the blonde hair dye anymore...~~

Hrrm.

Extremely rewarding. Or at least the end results will be.

That's why you do it slowly. People don't really notice the subtle changes... Even when they happen over time, people who see you constantly will never really acknowledge them. But those who you meet, and those who don't see you after an amount of time, will. But they aren't the ones who'd expect you to act a certain way, in comparison to those who see you constantly.

Then keep to it, if it's going to be rewarding for you... But if it's truly troublesome to you, you should also decide whether it's rewarding enough.

... Interesting.

But what is wrong with regality... Hrmm.

It WILL be rewarding enough to stick to.

There's nothing entirely wrong with it. It just... That if you feel that you're lying, by acting that way, then maybe it's not how you feel you should act?

Then keep to it, if you feel it will be.

But I should, must, and will act this way.

I am. Just. Ugh.

Mn... Then why feel like you're lying, when you do, when you feel you should?

If it's so troublesome... Maybe you should take a short break from what you're doing, so you don't feel as though it's starting to feel more like a hassle, than anything?

Because... conflict of issues and desires. And no way to test between them.

Can't. Have to pay attention to it, or it'll explode.

A conflict, huh...? Can you say what issues, and what desires, exactly?

...Explode? Interesting.

Between being treated as a commoner and my 'regal' self.

Figuratively, not literally.

Mn... What about as an equal?

I'd hope figuratively, honestly. Might be a bit risky, if something were to explode here... Though, I take it that you have to keep an eye on it, then?

Reiteriate:

Between being treated as average/normal/equal or being treated for my wealth.

Yes. Every day.

So you want to be treated as someone who is above others? Can I ask why?

That sounds... Slightly troublesome, honestly. You have very interesting extracurricular activities, Miss Noriko.

Because I was born into a better family. It gives me better privlige.

Yes. It is troublesome. And it is interesting, Mr. Souha.

Have you been able to keep up with the privilege you have been given?

I guess some of the more interesting things can be a bit... Troublesome. But I wonder how interesting it is, to one's point of view.

Yes. For the most part. Just. Ugh.

Extremely interesting.

It's expected to be a bit more... Troublesome, when you need to stick to the standards given. Many families have different standards, whether it be wealth, social ties, occupations, or even mental standards, that the family might have.

If you believe it is, then it is.

Yes. You can see my partial problem. ::Scratches head::

It is.

I can, at the very least... But do you enjoy keeping to those standards?

I love the standards. I just need something new.

Mn... But you're not allowed to do something new, instead, if you choose to?

Not really.

And, no, can't do anything with the witch.

Mn... Why can't you be allowed to do so? There may be standards... But even one who has to adhere to standards, can have personal time to explore new aspects and activities.

...I wasn't going to suggest Miss Yuuko. I believe if someone were to really want something... They should get it themselves, without asking for it, from those who grant such requests. It feels... More rewarding that way, with the knowledge that you were able to achieve what you wanted, yourself.

Though... Why wouldn't you be able to do anything with her, in the first place?

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