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[thefifthmonarch]

Gawd, I hate it when I feel like I'm faking.

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[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

"Faking", Miss Noriko?

Also, is your headache better, since the last time we spoke?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Ever feel like you live a lie at times, dahling?

Much better.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Quite a bit more than one would expect, Miss Noriko.

That's good. I felt a bit guilty that I caused it for you... So I'm glad that it's better for you, at least.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Keh. I'm sort of feeling a minor crisis of that.

We were having a bad day.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Mn... Maybe... You should talk to someone about that, so you can more sort out your feelings towards it, and maybe resolve it?

At least your days have become slightly better, then.

[Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Mind talking with me then?

Better, but with more hassle.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't mind at all, Miss Noriko.

Hassle? I take it that's somewhat related to your current feelings, then?

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Well, as we all know, I'm a rich pretentious snobby bitchy Kogal daughter of a wealthy family, no?

Not so much. Just extracurricular work.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't exactly call you such in those words, but if you find them appropriate, then... Yes, we do know that.

Ah, I see.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

I feel fake. Somewhat. I don't want to abandon myself... but. Ugh.

And it's just... yargh.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Mn... Maybe you should try to slowly change yourself in a way, so you won't feel like you're faking, anymore? At least, with the slowest of changes, as well as the most subtle, it doesn't feel like you're, as you put it, abandoning yourself. Especially if you only feel it somewhat... Slower would probably be better, in that case.

Is it at least rewarding, for you, to take part in it?

Re: [Private to Souha]

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

But I'm expected to be a snobby rich daddy's girl. Then again, I'm not using the blonde hair dye anymore...

Hrrm.

Extremely rewarding. Or at least the end results will be.

Re: [Private to Souha]

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

That's why you do it slowly. People don't really notice the subtle changes... Even when they happen over time, people who see you constantly will never really acknowledge them. But those who you meet, and those who don't see you after an amount of time, will. But they aren't the ones who'd expect you to act a certain way, in comparison to those who see you constantly.

Then keep to it, if it's going to be rewarding for you... But if it's truly troublesome to you, you should also decide whether it's rewarding enough.

[wild-spitfire.livejournal.com]

Then feel like you're realing! It'll give the world a lot less headaches if everyone could just real it.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... Realing.

... The hell are you on, kid?

[wild-spitfire.livejournal.com]

It's a verb I made up. You're fake when you're when you fake it and you're real when you real it!

I dunno, I'm sitting on the ground right now?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

You. Don't. Make up verbs. There's no such thing as realing.

... I meant drug wise, commoner.

[wild-spitfire.livejournal.com]

But there's such as a think as reeling! Do you fish? Water's bad.

Well...I've been sick and got medicine, I haven't been taking it does that count?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... But that's different.

... No.

[wild-spitfire.livejournal.com]

Those are technicalities, you can just laugh at the joke, lady. :<

Uh...does inhaling smoke count?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

No I can't.

... Yes.

[wild-spitfire.livejournal.com]

Why?

...OH, not THAT smoke! Just regular fumes when you burn stuff. .-.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... Because you're flipping Crazy.

[wild-spitfire.livejournal.com]

...why?

[foreverchilled.livejournal.com]

...I knew it. -_-;