Mn... Maybe you should try to slowly change yourself in a way, so you won't feel like you're faking, anymore? At least, with the slowest of changes, as well as the most subtle, it doesn't feel like you're, as you put it, abandoning yourself. Especially if you only feel it somewhat... Slower would probably be better, in that case.
Is it at least rewarding, for you, to take part in it?
That's why you do it slowly. People don't really notice the subtle changes... Even when they happen over time, people who see you constantly will never really acknowledge them. But those who you meet, and those who don't see you after an amount of time, will. But they aren't the ones who'd expect you to act a certain way, in comparison to those who see you constantly.
Then keep to it, if it's going to be rewarding for you... But if it's truly troublesome to you, you should also decide whether it's rewarding enough.
There's nothing entirely wrong with it. It just... That if you feel that you're lying, by acting that way, then maybe it's not how you feel you should act?
Mn... Then why feel like you're lying, when you do, when you feel you should?
If it's so troublesome... Maybe you should take a short break from what you're doing, so you don't feel as though it's starting to feel more like a hassle, than anything?
I'd hope figuratively, honestly. Might be a bit risky, if something were to explode here... Though, I take it that you have to keep an eye on it, then?
It's expected to be a bit more... Troublesome, when you need to stick to the standards given. Many families have different standards, whether it be wealth, social ties, occupations, or even mental standards, that the family might have.
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Better, but with more hassle.
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Hassle? I take it that's somewhat related to your current feelings, then?
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Not so much. Just extracurricular work.
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Ah, I see.
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And it's just... yargh.
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Is it at least rewarding, for you, to take part in it?
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Then again, I'm not using the blonde hair dye anymore...Hrrm.
Extremely rewarding. Or at least the end results will be.
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Then keep to it, if it's going to be rewarding for you... But if it's truly troublesome to you, you should also decide whether it's rewarding enough.
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But what is wrong with regality... Hrmm.
It WILL be rewarding enough to stick to.
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Then keep to it, if you feel it will be.
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I am. Just. Ugh.
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If it's so troublesome... Maybe you should take a short break from what you're doing, so you don't feel as though it's starting to feel more like a hassle, than anything?
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Can't. Have to pay attention to it, or it'll explode.
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...Explode? Interesting.
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Figuratively, not literally.
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I'd hope figuratively, honestly. Might be a bit risky, if something were to explode here... Though, I take it that you have to keep an eye on it, then?
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Between being treated as average/normal/equal or being treated for my wealth.
Yes. Every day.
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That sounds... Slightly troublesome, honestly. You have very interesting extracurricular activities, Miss Noriko.
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Yes. It is troublesome. And it is interesting, Mr. Souha.
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I guess some of the more interesting things can be a bit... Troublesome. But I wonder how interesting it is, to one's point of view.
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Extremely interesting.
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If you believe it is, then it is.
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It is.
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