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[thefifthmonarch]

Goddamnit, I didn't need that. Not now. It's been barely a month if even that.

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[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... ::If anyone could see her in real life, she's about to burst into tears. Gg, Erland. Gg.::

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...oh... snap... really... very sorry about that...

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

"Fuck off", commoner. This is a personal argument.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...don't think I will. For one thing, a mat like you really doesn't have the right to talk to me like that.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

And useless things such as yourself are disruptive. Shoo.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

The other you... it's really an improvement, you know. Gives people a chance to actually give a damn.

A brat like you? Why should we care? Run back home to your servants, we don't take your kind here.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

I'm the one who's real. I was born and raised as this, Eusebius. I choose to become this fake thing, and you go and break what was to be a 3 month respuite. Fuck you.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

You're just a brat. Hiding behind your parent's money. Even if you were the original, she's more 'true' than you'll ever be... because she can feel from the heart.

All your supposed 'culture', all your 'upbringing'... and you still fight like some urchin on the street. Good job, good job.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

You're treating me as if I'm two seperate people. I'm not Samasu Souha, goddamnit. This "Truer me" is just me as Clark Kent. I changed for a stituation, Eusebius. I was happy, goddamnit.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

And you think my current form is any different from your situation? Indeed, your analogy holds far more true for me than you.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Keh. I couldn't care about what you are. I'm UPSET THAT I'M ME AGAIN. DON'T YOU GET IT?

We are upset because we have to face the facts again, dahling.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...okay, then maybe I don't. How about you walk me through this.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

I made a wish to the witch named Ichihara Yuuko to make me think, act, walk and talk as if I came from a lower class family than the one I really was born into, dahling.

This way of talking. This way of acting. Was supposed to vanish for three months until March, when I would make a decision. I feel cheated of my choice because now, guess what, I'M THINKING LIKE I REALLY DO. I MISS MY MAKE UP. MY CLOTHES. MY ROOM IS GOING TO BE A BUNK BED SOON, GOD FUCKING DAMNIT.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

I hate you. I hate you. I hate you... ::She's crying in real life::

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...I'm sorry... I really am...

I didn't think a light hearted comment like that would have this sort of effect...

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... I WAS HAPPY, GODDAMNIT. I LIKED WHO I WAS.

... Dahling, you really should be more tactful.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...Honestly I like who you are. It might have felt false... but you were more honest, weren't you? You didn't cover up with make-up and jewelery, or false ideas of superiority. You were just... you.

Even if you were made by magic... you had a truer heart. Wouldn't that make you more... real?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

The make up, the superiority, the jewels. THEY ARE ME, GODDAMNIT.

This is just me without money. It MAKES ME FAKE COMPARED TO WHAT REALITY IS. I could live my entire life without ever getting employed!

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

As could I... but I have no use for such things. Because they're silly. They're surface. You can paint up and build a wonderful front for a crumbling shack... but that doesn't change the fact that it's still a shack.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

... ::Breaks down further, gg.:: I... don't... need... this...

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...it'd help if you could tell me what WOULD help.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

GO BACK IN TIME AND FIX THIS.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

....not strong enough, sorry.

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

Then what DO YOU WANT?

[thefifthmonarch.livejournal.com]

And I wasn't happy waking up. I'm a fucking Osiris Drop Out, thanks to prissy above me failing to not take her goddamn tests and the witch sealing the deal.